Saturday, November 24, 2012

Getting older and more awesomer

Soooooooo it was my birthday last week! I turned 33. Thirty. Three.

The fact that I can write that without needing to breathe into a paper bag actually shows considerable growth on my behalf.

My birthday, and the focus that it throws on my ageing self, has brought me varying degrees of distress each year since I turned 20. Back then, I was having conniptions over the fact that, as I would no longer be a teen, I could no longer blame my many "issues" on "teenage angst". I felt a great deal of pressure to grow the hell up. It was awful.

And, to be honest, all of my birthday woes since then have all kind of been due to the same thing - this idea that I needed to sort myself out already - that should be more together than I was. And also because I really didn't feel as old as my age suggested I should be. Even at 30, I was still feeling like a 16 year old - but a 16 year old who only had a limited amount of time before turning into a boring old fart.

Well, this year, I though "sod that!"

I mean, sure - I am getting on a bit. I have a serious, dull job. I have a mortgage. And I got really excited last month when I bought a Magimix for the kitchen.

But that doesn't mean that I have to turn into a boring person. And I haven't.

What I am realising now is that what I have gained over all these years is a better sense of who I am and what I like. And I really don't feel the need to subscribe to whatever others might think someone of my age, my gender, my profession etc should be like. I am, after years of feeling like and odd, awkward little misfit, feeling very comfortable with just being me. And that means being comfortable with my age too.

And it was with this renewed sense of self and not caring what people thought anymore that I decided that what I really wanted for my birthday was the same thing I have wanted since I was a wee little kid, but never had the guts to get - a skateboard!

And it makes me ridiculously happy!! When I tell people that I got a skateboard for my birthday, they either think it is the best thing ever or they think I am insane. Some of the crueler ones like to remind me that it is much easier to break bones "at my age'. I choose to ignore those people though.

I can't do much more than ride up and down the quiet, flat streets of my hood at the moment but it is a lot of fun. And it is nice to learn something new. Even if that something new could potentially result in stitches or a neck brace. YOLO bitches!!!!

The backpack in the above pics was also a birthday present (from me to me) - it is Deena & Ozzy and I got it from Urban Outfitters.  Ditto the shoes (also Deena & Ozzy) Did you know Urban Outfitters deliver to Australia for free for purchases over $50? Cos they totally do!!!!

My lovely husband also surprised me with this very cool, very goth and very posh Pasotti umbrella with skull handle.

Gah! I can't wait for it to rain now!!!!

He also bought me this pretty sparrow foot Deadly Ponies necklace - because he is lovely.

My birthday was totally rad.

And in addition to getting a crap load of awesome presents, one of my lovely co-workers made me vegan cupcakes that tasted like heaven doused in cinnamon. And I went and saw the final Twilight movies with three of my favourite people. Because I am 33 and I also happen to be Team Edward. Deal with it.

Best birthday EVER!


Renee Ruin said...

big fan of this outfit!! <3

Emma M said...

Thanks! That means a lot - I adore your blog. xox